#2 To My Crush
Dear Crush,
This one is going to be weird to write. The main reason for that being that you don’t exist. It’s strange to say that this is the first time in my life in a long, long time that I haven’t had a boy in my life that I’m crushing on. And honest to god- it feels amazing.
I guess if you did exist you’d be great. You’d do all the right things and say all the right things and talk to me unti late into the night- you know, all that typical teenager stuff. We’d hang out and laugh and make out and smoke and it’d be fun and we’d both enjoy it. But it wouldn’t last, and soon enough I’d be on to the next one.
I’m sure you’d be really cute and my parents would like you and I’d look forward to getting a call or a text from you and when it didn’t happen I’d try to play it off like I didn’t care but in actuality I’d be prety bummed. That’s normally the way it goes. I’m glad you don’t exist. I mean I like having someone to talk to, but you’re so NOT necessary. I have everything I need right now. I have my friends, my family, my dog, my sports, and school to focus on. A crush would just screw all that up and make this good thing that I have going that much harder on myself.
You know what I like the most though? I like being able to do whatever the hell I want whenever I want to do it. The freedom is the best part. I don’t have to worry about what you think about where I am or who I’m with. I don’t have to try to impress you. I can totally be me and not have to feel bad about it… That’s something that seems to rarely happen anymore.
I’m not saying I’m against liking you if you come along… But you’re gonna have to be the right person :) I’m so done with just settling with whoever comes my way just because I feel like I HAVE to have someone to like constantly. What is the point in that? I’ve finally realized that it’s perfectly okay to not have a guy at every moment and it’s probably the best feeling ever. So feel free to wander into my life if you dare… You’re gonna have to be pretty damn impressive because right now I’m pretty content with where I am, I wish you luck :)
Currently NOT interested,
-Greta Coleman
